I've been in a bit of a funk lately. (Author's note: A lot of this blogpost has been redacted since it was first published, as I came to realize it was too personal to post online.)
I don't know if you recall a short story I posted on this blog some time ago. There are two major diversions in my life: writing and hiking. The first, writing, channels my emotions into characters and plots. The second, hiking, renews me entirely. When I am out in the woods, responsibilities, cares, and anxiety fades. I hike and birdwatch, at least lately because it relieves my stress temporarily.
I recently took a hike to Lick Creek to ponder my thoughts and pray in solitude. And, perhaps, watch whatever nature was there. These Blue-Winged Teals (Anas discors) foraged on an oxbow lake as I watched. Tense and anxious themselves, once the teals saw me they took flight and left. Teals are some of the most skittish ducks I have ever seen.
Walking by the river (it may be called Lick Creek, but it is a river), I continued to harbor depression.
Stopping by a small swale near the edge of the river, something snapped inside. "It's a lovely spring day, and I am young, well-off, and healthy. What am I complaining for? Why do I have these thoughts?"
Some compulsion told me, as I walked back to the trailhead, to walk back to the bridge one last time. My legs were tired and I didn't necessarily want to, but I did it anyway, feeling as though I should for some reason. Once on the bridge, I noted these Blue-Winged Teals feeding in a nearby tributary stream. I moved parallel to the creek along the road to get more pictures.
As I was wondering why I visited the bridge, I spotted something in the tributary creek, something I had never seen before in my life, something, but for that small compulsion earlier, I would never have seen. It was... a Beaver. Yes, I know, overly dramatic. Still, I'd never seen one before. The size of the animal immediately precluded Muskrat, and I'd seen the lodge before. I watched this animal cruise upriver until it disappeared, my lingering anxiety entirely replaced by the joy of discovering something I've never seen before.
While I understand that some people may see this entire incident as a coincidence, I find that this sort of "coincidence" happens quite frequently, and I attribute God to it. I do not know whether this was a particularly divine beaver, but I believe it might have been. This reminds me of one of my favorite Bible verses, 1 Corinthians 1:25
For the foolishness of God is wiser than human wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than human strength.
I suppose a beaver being sent from God is rather foolish, too. Still, I would rather believe in such a thing than in an absolute and empty nothingness. Anyway, that's enough personal philosophy for now. I do have an announcement, however. I will be decreasing the number of blogposts from now on to twice a week. Twice a week is probably more than enough, and I've been outdoing that lately.
Also, I got a better picture of those teals after the beaver disappeared!
Also, I got a better picture of those teals after the beaver disappeared!
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